exactly six months, I will be 20 years old. TWENTY YEARS OLD.I know, I know. A lot of you out there are already 20 or older. And you're probably grumbling right now about this silly teen you're reading who needs to chill the heck out because 20 isn't old.
But right now, it sounds old. It sounds very old. It would be okay if there was some kind of reward for being 20. You know like... 16, you get your driver's license. 18, you get to vote, buy cigarettes, and look at porn. 21, you get to legally drink.
But 20. At 20, you get nothin'. Zilch. Just that "oh hey, look, you're not a
teen anymore, why don't you grow up?" look from everyone.I don't want to grow up!
As you can see, I'm sort-of-kind-of in crisis mode about this. I am almost 20 years old and I have accomplished NOTHING. People used to establish empires and take down armies by the time they were 16! There are all kinds of people today who did something awesome and successful before they were 20. I HAVE NOTHING.
Ugh. What am I going to do?
I remember being in a similar situation a couple years ago, wondering what my "legacy" would be and what mark I had/would leave on this world. I just had to sit down and think for a while before I realized that: 1. There's not anything I can do to change my past, and 2. Maybe God's plan for me won't become apparent to me until later in life, or maybe even at all, but if I work hard at everything I do, pursue my dreams, and I'm the best person I can be, surely something will come from that. I wish I could say something to convince you, but I think it's just something everyone has to figure out for themself. The important thing is to not lose faith in the person that you are and the things that you CAN do!
ReplyDeleteI remember turning 24 and I called my mom and was like, "OMG! I'm almost 30!" Now here I am, 28 and even closer to being "almost 30." And I still feel like I'm 16 and have not accomplished much out side of my family life.
ReplyDeleteSo the depressing part...I'm 8 years older than you and I still feel the exact same way as you. And from what my mom says, she's 50 and she still feels this way too. I guess that feeling never goes away.