This Thursday, I'm moving to Washington, D.C.
Yeah, life just got real.
I'm excited, you know. I've got a one-way plane ticket and a suitcase full of suits. I start my new unpaid, part-time, but awesomely exciting internship on Monday, the 23rd. On Tuesday the 24th, I have an interview for a new, part-time, not-well-paid-but-at-least-it's-money, grown up job.
And soon, I'm moving in with my boyfriend. Once we find a place. For now, I'm sleeping on my friend's floor (thanks, girl!) and hoping that that situation doesn't last terribly long because I don't even have a sleeping bag and I detest living out of a suitcase for extended periods of time. But still, a big thanks to my friend for letting me sleep on her floor at all. :)
But, you know those butterflies you get in your stomach when you're on the cusp of something huge? I've got a lot of those right now. I don't have a lot of time to be nervous because I'm running around seeing friends and getting ready and making phone calls, but occasionally I have a second to pause and think, "Oh hell." I'm moving halfway across the country, and I only have two friends there who have got my back. My family is mostly spread throughout the south and California - I'll be the first to move to DC. And so, the butterflies.
Most of the time, when I get those butterflies, it's okay - they just remind me that I'm right at the edge of something amazing, and all I have to do is push forward. Often, they're a good sign, a sign that I'm doing something right. But sometimes they scare me; I start thinking - what if something goes wrong? What if I fail?
Then I just think - You know, Coldplay is still around. They're still famous. They didn't fail. If Coldplay can do things, and be successful, I sure as hell can.*
And that always makes me feel better.
*I really don't like Coldplay. I know a lot of you do. I just...I don't get why they're famous. I'm sorry. You can substitute the band you hate the most in here, it'll work the same.
P.S. I'm going to be needing some guest bloggers in the next few weeks. I'm looking for five people who can talk about big moves and they're experiences with it. If you're interested, please email me at valorielovely [at] gmail [dot] com.