Lately, I've been feeling exhausted all the time. Sick absolutely constantly. I've gotten to a point where I'm half-assing everything because I just don't care anymore. I'm totally burned out on everything. Dropping everything and driving somewhere else is looking more and more appealing.
So, I took a mental health day. Other than go to class, I didn't let myself do anything I didn't want to all day. I made sure today was about me and my needs. Because without that, I was going to entirely lose my mind. So, all I did all day was:
Journal for more than an hour.
It's amazing how many things you can discover about yourself during a free write.
Read some JD Salinger.
The Glass family has a tendency to make me feel alive again.
Lay in the grass and feel the ground beneath me.
It was the first time I felt stable and entirely solid in weeks.
Eat waffles for breakfast, poptarts for lunch, and pudding for dinner.
Yes, comfort food. Yes, entirely comforting. No, I don't regret it.
Read over writing I haven't touched in months and gotten back in touch with characters.
I missed spending at least an hour a day writing. I need that back in my life.
Turned off my phone and went to bed at six.
I needed sleep so desperately. I feel like I can physically see things more clearly now.
Watched about three hours straight of Friends.
Like the Glass family, those six remind me that we are alive and real.
I think I'll do it all again tomorrow.
What do you guys do on your mental health days?
It's amazing how many things you can discover about yourself during a free write.
Read some JD Salinger.
The Glass family has a tendency to make me feel alive again.
Lay in the grass and feel the ground beneath me.
It was the first time I felt stable and entirely solid in weeks.
Eat waffles for breakfast, poptarts for lunch, and pudding for dinner.
Yes, comfort food. Yes, entirely comforting. No, I don't regret it.
Read over writing I haven't touched in months and gotten back in touch with characters.
I missed spending at least an hour a day writing. I need that back in my life.
Turned off my phone and went to bed at six.
I needed sleep so desperately. I feel like I can physically see things more clearly now.
Watched about three hours straight of Friends.
Like the Glass family, those six remind me that we are alive and real.
I think I'll do it all again tomorrow.
What do you guys do on your mental health days?
you just typed out my life lately, better than i have been able to. friends... i am literally sitting here, thinking those things you just typed and watching friends. i feel exhausted and lazy. my mental health day is tomorrow. feel better lady, chin up:)
ReplyDeletemental health days for me involve blogging (mostly reading and finding new blogs to love on)
ReplyDeletetaking pictures of random things
sleeping a lot
eating a lot
and generally just lounging about
(mostly in sweats)
ahh, to have nothing to do...
Well that was refreshing. It's always good to take a step back and look at your life. A lot of things you said really ring true for me, for example we fill our days with "important" things and stay really busy, but that only temporarily covers up real life. Those things are "important", but we tend to neglect the most important, overarching thing--our mental well-being and happiness. I find myself sleeping a lot during the day (taking several naps varied in length). I say to myself I'm just physically tired because of the Corps, early Band practice, what have you. But in reality, there's just not anything in my life worth staying awake for. :P Sucks, I know, but I have a feeling that you can empathize with that. What can I do about it? Answer: nothing. fuck My life is pretty much dictated to me by Corps schedule/rules. You, for example, are free to skip class, wear whatever you want whenever/in class, walk on whatever grass you want, eat when walking, say any word in the dictionary (yeah.), and the list goes on. My life is the opposite of all those. Again, sucks, I know. (PS it's kinda funny how everyone thinks their life sucks, even though, in most cases, their lives are pretty freakin awesome actually...for example, all the major things in my life are awesome: wonderful family, finanically stable, good job set up for me when I graduate, on track to achieve my childhood dreams, etc etc...). I am lacking in a few departments though I have to say. Anyway, it's 1:50am right now, I'm waking up at around 5:00am, so i'm gonna say peace out for now. See you tomorrow?? Maybe? If you decide you're gonna do the normal thing. Normal meaning going to class and doing shit like that. PS Hope you don't mind me writing this (pretty positive you dont). Kinda out of left field i know, but your post inspired me to go ahead and say why not, screw it. When in Rome, right? PS I enjoyed talking with you last Tuesday on our way to the Trigon, even though it was mostly superficial small talk that didn't really make a lot of sense. Maybe we can do it again (I mean not the superficial small talk) next time you come to class? Let me know. I think I could learn a few things from you...cool thanks bye im done now. See ya soon.
ReplyDeletePS I shall leave you with this (as if I haven't wasted enough of your time already). I've been playing this song in my head for about an hour, and there's only one way to get rid of a song stuck in your head, right? So I thought I'd go ahead and share it with you. Here's the link (maybe you can spot Nick Cannon. haha! [ever seen Drumline?] I'm not racist, I promise. Really.):
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=399Wlt10b5E
The Glass family is definitely what I turn to (as you know), except their needed presence is almost a daily thing. We've established we're in the same place right now. It sucks.
ReplyDeleteI tend to turn off my phone and disconnect my internet. I make butt-loads of coffee and hot chocolate. I meditate, do yoga, go for a walk/run, look at old things, cook and clean.
To be honest, I avoid writing and my writings by all means. It just makes me more upset.
I might follow your lead and take a mental health day soon.