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That got me thinking – cleaning isn’t a bad way to make a
living. My family hired a woman who came and really deep cleaned our house like
once a month and homegirl banked. So,
naturally, I wondered if I could ever be happy cleaning houses and I had a
weird realization: I don’t mind cleaning other people’s stuff. It just cleaning
my stuff makes me stabby.
Boyfriend was out of town at this point, and since he wasn’t
around to look at me side-eyed when I didn’t put my dishes directly in the dishwasher, there was a growing pile of them in the sink. As I stared at them I felt
irritated with myself for letting them sit there. For not having a cleaner
house. Which led to me being irritated that my house wasn’t better decorated. Naturally, this spiraled quickly and within an hour
I was mad at myself for not being a superwoman who had time to have an
immaculate house and run her own business and look drop dead gorgeous everyday.
I mean, what the hell is that? I don’t put my dishes in the
dishwasher for two days and now I’m a failure? Sit the fuck down, inner voice.
It’s not that big of a deal. No one is superwoman.
In my brain, I know this – no one does everything without
help and no one can DO ALL THE THINGS. Which is why I would be okay with
cleaning up after someone else; I know they’re not superhuman and I’m helping
them out. But I’m so much harder on myself. I think we all are. Aren’t you?
This has to stop. From here on out, I am telling myself to
not judge my own character based on the fact that there are dishes in the sink,
the bed isn’t made, I forgot to tweet about something, or all I had to eat
today was hummus and carrots. Guess what? IT’S OKAY. It’s okay to not do
everything and it’s okay to be nice to yourself. Self-improvement and getting things done is
NOT the same as running yourself ragged and being Judgey McGee.
Note to self: Enjoy your life! Sit down and eat your hummus!
i have that inner conversation with myself almost daily! it's hard to not beat yourself up. good luck finding that balance :)
ReplyDeletealso, I cleaned houses for a while, and it's sort of fun to make money that way.
(and sad to admit, I hate hummus)
Now, I really want hummus. I do this to myself sometimes as well. Like, why can't I do 1202309423 things at a time and just get everything done! It's taken me a while to figure out that I just need to sit down and breathe. Take one thing at a time!
ReplyDeleteAND cleaning for others is tax free ;)
ReplyDeleteI feel the same way. I hate cleaning my house, but I would be more than happy to go clean someone else's house. I do the same thing. I don't put a bowl in the dishwasher and after two days there is this huge pile! I could have prevented it all by just taking a minute to put things in the dishwasher :)
ReplyDelete<3 Jamie
When I finally stopped feeling guilty about all of the things I don't finish by the end of the day, life got SO much sweeter!!!
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