Thursday, April 1, 2010

A Change In Direction

As you guys know, there's been drama in my life because some of my IRL friends read this blog and use it against me (to some extent). Yet, I've been hesitating to write this blog post for a long time now (read: months), mostly because I'm afraid it'll start drama of it's own. But now it's getting to the point where something's gotta give, and this is it.

I'm not ending On the Pursuit. I love this blog, and it's been a wonderful way to meet people over the past year.

However, after all the nonsense that went down with Friend and a few other instances that I haven't talked about here as much, I've become uncomfortable talking about things going on in my life now simply because of who does read this blog, I've decided that a change in direction is necessary.

As you may or may not have noticed in the past month, I haven't really blogged about anything going on below the surface, other than the accident and thinking I'm fat. But a lot has been going on, a lot that has reduced me to crying myself to sleep pretty much every night this month. I've tried to ignore all the IRL drama, and just be myself on here, regardless of what people think, but I just can't do it as long as people who read this blog will give me hell about my honest opinion about things. Which sucks, because, some of these people are my closest friends, and wonderful friends offline. So I've been needing a place to talk and be honest, so I started another blog like I've said once or twice before that I thought I should.

No, I'm not going to link up to it. The whole point is that I want to be able to talk about how I feel like one of my best friends has seemingly abandoned me for no reason, and I have no idea why, without someone I know in real life going to him/her and saying I feel this way, when, honestly, I've basically given up dealing with it. I need a place where I can go to cry, to rejoice, and to think out loud without losing a friend over it. And this just isn't that place anymore.

But, if I don't know you IRL, and you want the link, shoot me an email (check the sidebar) and I'll hook you up. Most of you guys have been so supportive and wonderful, and I hate to offend you, because it really is only a few people who are causing a hell of a lot of grief. So, please, please, don't be offended.

No, this is not an April Fool's Joke.

I love you guys. :) I'll post again soon.


  1. completely understandable. i've thought about doing the same thing, but in the long run no one who i know IRL is offended at what I say on my blog. sometimes i have to monitor how i word things because of who reads it, but it's not been that big of an issue. yet.

    and i'll email you for the link. because i love ya :)

  2. I've started and deleted three blogs--about seven years of writing--before my present incarnation. If I can reach out to you and give you any't delete them from the ether entirely when you decide that you need a fresh start. Save them somewhere.

    May be completely common sense to you, but I'm definitely a *clean sweep* type of girl.

    I think your dilemma is not all that uncommon. I hope you're able to get what you need to off your chest.

  3. I have been reading your blog for about 5 months now, and I understand why you did that! I wanna keep up with you though.

    Come visit up north!! Baltimore!!!!


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